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awesome. okay. right now. whoa. early. less sleep than expected. dreams of people riding planes with obama. not too hopeful though, it might have crashed. i don't know. i woke up. sometimes i fall asleep with the lights on. its something about denying i am tried and sleepy and its bed time. so i just fall asleep anyway, but the lights are on and i haven't brushed my teeth and really its all a little disorienting and it doesn't seem like a way to get good restful sleep as much as it seems like, an excuse? sleeping. sleeping. fiona apple doesn't go to sleep to dream. or at least she didn't when i was 16. i've heard some of her other, more recent stuff recently, but her shadowboxer self is too imprinted on me and keeps her filed back in my memory even though i did actually like the stuff i heard and listen to again? i am leaving on a trip tonight! whoos! first leg? sf. really i am getting on a plane in the morning and flying up the coast to seattle. i like to visit seattle. i don't want to live there. why would you live in seattle if you could live in san francisco? because you like coffee. they love coffee up there. you know, history and all. Don't mean shit to me, you say? History. I know. what a trick pony that history is. Its all knowing and predictive and dead and gone all in one. In that case, is anyone making a case that history is god? no? oh, well, okay. i am excited for this travel. i think it will be an awesome break from my routine. yup. yea. sha na na. i. its a secret. slowed. bright. and ending.