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In an effort to be coherent, I am thinking about doing a theme. like. doors. Ten minutes on doors. Well, mostly the first thing I think about when I think about doors is the metaphysical kind. You know, like if I could just exit the door of my ego then I could dance in the palace of enlightenment. Or, less buddhist more new age doors like, the doorway to my fire is closed, that is why I am cold. And then the cruel part of all metaphysical doors, the only thing on the otherside? another goddamn door. or blessed door. i mean, it could have been a door way to zombies.
I also think of two sayings. "where you born in a barn" and "dont let the door hit you on the way out" both of them have a kind of crudeness to them, no? like they would be heard best out of the mouth of a large woman in a short house dress yelling from the kitchen table. maybe not. i take it back. i also think of well, i don't think much about real doors. but i a glad they are around. keeping the bugs out. not to mention the rats and raccoons. eww. i cant imagine what my life would be like without doors. an animal sanctuary. sometimes when my doors are open birds fly in. sometimes they fly back out. i get so used to living in places where all doors open to the outside. who will i be when this is not true of me anymore? me living behind more doors. thats who. doors. i cant install one in a house. i cant install one anywhere for that matter. actually, i probably could if the frame was already in there and i had some tools. this is boring. how to strike the mix, that is what i am going to figure out. or not. but that is what i am going to practice. swinging doors, aren't those everyones favorite. there is something lucky, luxurious, or maybe just fun about them. i mean, as far as home structures can be fun, i think that swinging doors count, and then there are the swings of saloon doors, which would also be pretty fun to have in a house. or in the right saloon. peace.