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Really its like I cant believe I am making myself do this because, well a) shouldn't I be doing it on paper, you know, a different connection with my hand and head, and b) I am going to be late for therapy. well. I could be. But never fear, I picked out the clothes I am going to wear last night in my teeth clenched sleep. I woke up because my teeth hurt at some point in the night. That, mi amigas, is some clenching. Flossing. I finally started flossing so hopefully my teeth won't all fall out before I am 35, or 87 really for that matter but the way things are going... pause pause pause pause pause pause. repetition. repeat. over and over and over and over. i like it, really, oh rly? yes. REALLY. out with it out with it the garbage and the gook and the sludge on top of my brain like a some sluggish hangover but really its just life, my life, everyday. EVERYDAY. mother fuckers. do you know how often I refer to you world as mother fuckers? ha! of course you don't. but you might be surprised. you know, like motha fuckas more than mother fucker. yeaaaaaaaaaaa. whoa. whoa. it is harder doing it this way because usually i don't get so many pauses, but honestly and truthfully i am censoring myself here (Shocking, i know) cause its not like I am actually going to let you read all my bullshit, I mean, I am only human and really too insecure for all that. But, you might be interested to know that I will probably get better at this, and the entries get more readable. anyway. blah blah blah. referential. quotes. i started watching the daily show online and yesterday I killed a spider, well, I was really just going to knock it down off the wall but I killed it and it was one of those big spiders, you know, like daddy long leg kind only the kind they have out here in northern cali is like, well, their bodies are a bit bigger and their legs smaller, but anyway i killed this thing and it was nothing, I mean, the amount of mass that made up this creature was really, like nothing. it was, yes, shocking. yea yea yea. oh yea. day off into the city bright lights big city my future your time all the time in the world is not enough for me to fall in love with a stranger. who isn't here, in front of me. do not be afraid. its no narrative. but that is the tendency when there is all of a sudden an audience, however nonexistent. ahhh one minute late!