you know, you say tomato, i say 155

what were the two words i was thinking walking here? something like, tide, tiding. no. light and lit? no. try and trip? no. flit. yes. flit and fight? no. flit. flit and something. it was all going so swimmingly. so so so, its amazing what an instant will do? right. amazing in that this-is everyday-life-good-luck-wrapping-your-head-around-it way. not in the a-meteor-just-fell-from-the-sky or i-just-found-out-G. Bush-is-my-first-cousin way. no, just in the everyday swallow and mood of life changing and flickering. i had a little run in with my crazy this morning. just popped out. "oh, well, hello there" i'd say i missed you but lying is a sin. but its not against the ten commandments. am i wrong here? google save me! i dont know. what does it mean to bear false witness? sounds like lying to me. 'bear false witness against your neighbor' how archaic. bear witness means, you know, like 'can i get a witness?' it means to you know, witness. to be a witnesser. OED save me! knowledge, wisdom, understanding, testimony are words the definition provides. sounds more like 'dont talk shit' which is like the cousin of 'dont lie' so many christians out there. so many. not so much me i dont think. nope. no so much there for me, for the there but for the grace of god. i really appreciate that saying though. it sounds so deeply grateful. there but for grace of god.... whatever. okay. allright. i'll redo it. one day i will do some work. i guess i'll work for money again. but until then? until then... until then... the biggest head trip of my human existence? death. one of the grossest stories i've every heard? monks self flagellating their backs till cut and bloody, then wearing coarse fur cloaks, fur side toward body.