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cause its just words. words and linguistics. and stop making sense. okay. its a nervous habit. evening. time. its a common theme. its imagining you looking at me and it says okay. i have to stop this music. restarting. my hands are tired. my work speaks. my turn is over. my rake is won. my grove is forest. my head is high. my faith is shot. my world is warring. my smile is surprising. my love is real. i was thinking tonight about total responsibility and this 'thank you im sorry please forgive me i love you" mantra that goes with it. it is powerful but disappointing because total responsibility doesn't lead to total control. being in total control as a motivation for action. having a hair. leaving an heir. prancing on air. being a daughter. being your daughter. father. father bond. made its mark. cats. humans. animals. domestication. chicken. roosters. eggs. humanity. bond. make marks. two points on a time line, starting, halfway, past halfway, ended. done. begun and done. over and beginning. my world is spinning. its a small caress. a received touch to a tender spot. supremely receptive. supreme receptivity. broken free from bonds. candles and light. candles in darkness. spray paint on walls. freedom of the body. spray painted basements of student housing. attics packed with old. dust from dead people. skin cells. atoms. physics. universe. religion. point blank. pointedly. blank expression. re. regarding. repeat. redone. redo. rectify. reify. touch faith. personal jesus. life on earth. planet. people. humans. holistic. substitutions. touch. intimacy. understanding. faith. love. purpose. sarcasm. longest minute ever. colloquialisms in writing.